MY INCOMPLET VIEW OF INCOMPLET LIFE

Who am I? Where am I from, and where am I going to?
Actually it doesn't have certain answer, even if I consume whole of my heart and desire for it. I have just one certain couclusion, that is I'm just living in GIVEN-LIFE, even though I've tried to solve this life of mine consistantly for a long time. As a matter of fact, in the past, I usually tried to solve my faced situation of that time through the past situation, like cause and effect. Doing these, someday I recognized that the present is not only the past time's problem, it's more about the future's. Yes, that's right. I realized the present is in the middle of the future.


Present is not a moment. It can't be cutted by knife, but it's like flowing water. Because the moment is very temporary and instant thing, it has the start and end, but present doesn't. It occurs somthing's happening consistantly after by every moment, as far as I have life. Because present is the composed of much moment's combination. In other words, present is not an instant point, but flowing whole time.


That means we don't have to stick to something's effect or result. Because these things blong to instant moment things. For example, when I broke a wine glass, I could never use that glass ever. Another example, when I bought a luxury fancy bag, it has gone old slowly, in the end it would throw away to the trash can like trash someday. Like these, the past which has broken can't change and can't come to me again as an opportunity. And even though I made the good result, the result is just a istant state ultimately.



I'm not a pessimist. I'm a one of a optimist rather. Nevertheless the reason why I look like a some kind of pessimist is I consider it is very bad way for our healthy life to love too much temporary present things. To look present too much is same as to look past time too much. And to look past time too much can cause we are trapped in the manerism vally easily. What I really want to say is we have to look forwrd to the future. We don't need to wast of our time to look past and to regret.


"ENJOY YOUR LIFE!". This words' real meaning is "ENJOY YOUR FREEDOM FROM THE PRESENT RESULT!", I think. The real enjoying is not the happiness with present's result that already had come. That's the happiness with a hope for the future.